The Thing I Can't Decode

halooooo....01.20 WIB. di rumah. mata saya bengkak T.T

iya...ngaku deh, abis nangis banjir air mata melebihi adegan sinetron...

and it's all because...I've just had a...can I call it a 'fight'??

with him. a very best friend of mine.

he's the one that -swear to God- I will never hurt, but in fact, I did hurt him :'(

at first, it was about cracking a joke on that so called twitter that turned out to be a disaster! I didn't mean to hurt him. never.

and after those arguments, tears, and so on...I just felt like I can't stand it anymore. I'd better go and leave it all behind.

then...me, a very impulsive girl, suddenly decided to delete my twitter account.
KA-BOOOOM!!!! sebenernya udah pengen sejak lama, karena twitter bikin orang jadi kecanduan. twitter is good, fun, but I don't want to be addicted -.-

you can call me reckless, but I just did what my heart told me to do...

tapi gw sadar, masalah antara kami bakal terus ada...menyangkut hal yg sangat sensitif. tadinya gw pikir gw lebih baik menjauh selamanya, tapiiii...

dan dalam pikiran gw yg lagi suram, tiba-tiba pengen ketawa miris pada kalimat yang dipercayai banyak orang bahwa "Tuhan itu Satu"...

dan terpikir lirik lagu The Beatles yang sempet diprotes kaum religius:
"imagine there's no religion...and the world will be as one"
(yg sebenernya dimaksudkan untuk mengkritik perang atas dasar agama).

dan teringat ayat Al Qur'an bahwa Tuhan menciptakan manusia berbeda-beda suku, agama, bangsa, untuk saling mengenal dan belajar mengasihi.

dan terpikir hal yg sarkas: kenapa nggak sekalian aja waktu lahir tiap manusia dikasih label berdasarkan identitas golongannya. jadi yg berbeda ga usah saling kenal, biar ga saling menyakiti. beres kan??

there must be something that makes all the good things seem so wrong...
something that I can't decode, something that I don't even deserve to feel...

P.S. I love you.